And I bounce back again because that is what I do

It is 1.46 am, very early on a wednesday morning. I just baked a cake for a friend’s birthday, we didnt manage to surprise her, but well! We did get round to baking the cake! And it was ok for a first cake, so pat on the back called for~  There was a moment just before moving my lazy ass off the bed that I thought, perhaps, I will do it tomorrow. But no, we did it today and Im glad we did. There wasnt any cake cutting or birthday wish making, but ahh, out with the birthday conventions I guess! Just some ceremonial cake cutting by ‘knife man’ (???) and enjoying some cake and conversation. I must admit though, I still struggle to get a bit of the accents, so I tend to zone out. And, I tend not to be able to gauge some people’s conversational pauses well. Interesting….

I like the feel of tapping on the keyboard. Alice today found it amazing that I could type without looking at the keyboard,  ‘you’re not actually looking at the keyboard….! like a secretary!’ she said.Yay, random thing I can say i do kinda well-ish. Along with all other Singaporean teenagers I know. And probably a lot of teenagers and university kids. Alice is funny. ha.

Anyway, I have come to remember to appreciate once again, the power of self-belief and self-actualisation.  Yes, for now this is something I can believe in. I was thinking about how I did Math at O levels and A levels. I did well at O levels, even if I slept through so many classes because my tutor told me that there was not a doubt that I could get As. And I did. And for A lvls, I only kinda half-believed, weakly forced myself to mutter that I could get an A. and of course I didnt. So, if I know for sure that I can do it, then I guess, I will have no choice but to achieve.

Today I had an unbelievable amount of sweet stuff, unbelievable. So unbelievable that Im not even gonna care it sounds scary, its just crazy: 1 vanilla slice, 1 m&m cookie, 2 red-bean paste glutinous riceballs, 1 danish, 1 thorntons ice cream, 1 slice of homemade chocolate birthday cake.

And thats not including the other food I ate. I am seriously killing my body. Oh well, this is once and only! crazy. Im going to start running with jina soon! wheee.

Orchids are amazing. They are kinda like battery-operated toys, for want of a better analogy. If you dont insert the batteries (water them), they dont move, they just stay. My flower has remain unchanged for at least three weeks. But once you do, there are movements, it springs back to life. I have a new flower blooming. Bless those orchids. They are very patient with owner tantrums.

many thanks to the lovely people who cheer me on, love y’all!